November 2006

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Human rites

“You wasted $150,000 on an education when you coulda got it for fifty bucks in late charges at the public library”
-Will Hunting
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Songs of the moment:
A Little Deeper-Ms. Dynamite
1979-Smashing Pumpkins
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There are times, that is how i feel about my school.
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I met Vinod, 24, a mechanical engineer, at my French class. He works for MSF or Doctors Without Borders. He gave me alot of info about volunteer work and offered to help out if I’m interested to do an internship with MRCS. I’d rather ICRC but thats quite tough to get. I used to think red cross was all wtv, nothing really, blame the sekolah rendah/menengah bulan sabit (red crescent) image branding.
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*In June 2007, I was offered to intern with ICRC. 2 months. Many thanks to Altaf.
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a semester plus or so, i realized i didnt quite like any field of law, except those in relation to human rights, humanitarian rights, constitution, politics, government..of late im certain that im into human rights etc..but im beginning to see it extend to more than that..i get upset if i find out that a person is entitled to the right of a lawyer 24 hours within his arrest, and that person has been deprived of that right..i would wanna help him out and be involved..

but i realize that in a commercial contract, if a by virtue of that contract that person is allowed to deal with say, 2 companies in buying materials, but say the government or the other contracting party terminate the contract claiming that the other guy breached the contract because he can actually only buy materials from one supplier..thats contract law, i dont like..but because he has been deprived of right in pursuant to that collective agreement or wtv, that works me up..so maybe im into rights as a whole..time will tell..soon i hope.
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part of the the reason i brought that up is also this, and im sharing because who knows, maybe someone can assist me in getting some answers..ive been questioning of late, whether or not i want to do volunteer work? do i really want to or i just like the idea of doing it? or the image of doing it or having done it before?

like how some ppl dont really like dj ing or studying marine biology but do it because of some reason that they themselves are not conscious off..its easy to be judgmental but i think we shouldnt be premature in judging them..who knows right? i used to not want to practice law at all, but once i got into mooting, i altered my stance..going back,im not really interested in doing volunteer work locally, i wanna go either africa or south america..but does that mean i just wanna go there coz i want the experience? or the distance? or the peculiarity? or i dont think ppl here dont need help? or the help im willing to offer is not in demand here? is there a test to determine all of this?
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me and vinod were talking about human rights stuff and its relation to law and malaysia..i was telling him that malaysia is one of the highest crime solving country (not supported by facts/statistic), and ppl are proud of that, i am too..but i say, maybe, and maybe, that is because theres little respect for human rights law..and i hear you/ppl say, yea but the criminal deserve it..really? they do? every single time in solving a crime, when a persons human rights is violated, does that person always end up being the criminal or just supplying info or a nobody at all? and whats the ratio of that happening? i hear you/ppl say that ‘yea but it helps solve crimes’..

so i ask you this, do u know that at times, in interrogating a suspect in relation to narcotics, their nails get pulled of from their fingers..or there was an attempt to..i hear you/ppl say ‘yea but he got involved, even tho he is not the guy who committed wrong, his fault, hes part of it, who asked him to get involved’..so i ask you

‘what if it was a case of mistaken identity? or worse still, what if it was your brother? or even worse, what if both?’ what say you?
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vinod told me this story/analogy..some time ago, there was this robber in UK who was on the run, stole a car and later in the chase, gave up, ran into a house, and climbed on the roof..police didnt want to climb on top afraid that he might fall, and if he did, then the police will be in some serious mess..so the robber remained up there for 3 days..when he was hungry, the brought him food, and also blankets, water and cigarette..im not sure if i agree with that, i really dont know..thats also a waste of police force, labour and tax payers money..imagine if all robbers pull this trick..

*(suggested reading, Prison Diary Volume I,II and III by Jeffrey Archer)

..now heres what happen in malaysia, there was some robbers some where and they were shot accidentally with stray bullets..one of them, got it bad and died..he got shot in the chest and head.

Friday night closure

“Its like ten thousand spoons and all you need is a knife”
-Alanis Morissette
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Songs of the moment:
N/A
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I have come to realize that i am verbose..and have a tendency to blog unnecessary and uninteresting things..at the time of composition, this did occur to me of its effect on other ppl, but it was interesting to me then..but now..hmmm..to be fair, for years, i was a celibate to even reading a blog, let alone think of having one of my own..

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b-b-b-buttttt, i didnt mean it to happen..we came home late..we went upstairs..one thing led to another..next thing we know, we were……….
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‘Blog..im still learning the ropes,’ i say..
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i forgot to explain the relevance of my Broadband post..the relevance and irony is, that the application i made at the telecoms shop, is pending..2 hours ago, i got an email from streamyx saying that the workmen will call me soon and my application, the one that i made via the website, is pending..and in 7-10 days time, the maxis broadband ppl will call me to come and install the modem at my house..while i am complaining with this present 1800′s 56K modem connection, now im faced with 3 pending broadband internet service..the irony..the..sigh..
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i got hungry, so i went downstairs, had a banana, said hello to Toffee the cat.

Hes being caged at night of late by one of the parental units..apparently this pussy had the balls to shit per spot per night in around the house..kitchen table, foyer table, kitchen island, mezzanine.

Brought up a cup of water, a slice of choclit caaaake, and two sealed singapore girls scout cookies..and watch the movie on the one seater sofa across my desk..the feeling, the atmosphere, bliss?
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if it is, imagine what would paris hilton make of it?
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“OUWWW MY GAADDD..AM I BEING PUNKD??HAHAAAA..you guyssss..i knew itttt..where are you? where’s the camra?? ashton?? HAHAHAHAAA..ASHHTONNNNNNN…..”

Broadband confusion

“No thinking. That comes later. You must write your first draft with your heart. You rewrite with your head. The first key to writing is..to write, not to think”
-Sean Connery/William Forrester
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Song of the moment:
Cairo To Casablanca-Madanitche
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On tuesday, i went online and registered for telecoms streamyx online..after many clicks and entries, it went back to the original page, i thot it was bollocks and nothing happen.
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So on thursday,i went to tm point, the shop and registered..everything went fine and the guy asked me to fax the telephone owners IC (the General) later for application since i didnt have it with me..i got the IC copy afternoon, so i figure ill just go and pass it to them by hand tomorrow (saturday)..however when i was there, the guy said the application is not going immediately through, apparently there was streamyx at this house before bla bla..i put on my semi hearted surprise face..exhausted of dealing with the General about the former account.
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Today, now, friday, just now, when i was on the way to my last class for tuition, my student said she was out and was on the way back..since i was near taipan, i dropped by the maxis office and tried to find out more about their wireless thing..gedebak gedebuk, i registered under the impression, thats that, i get my stuff, for free of a 30 day trial..after the forms, the guy said, ok within 7-10 days we’ll have it over to your house and install it..i said thanks politely because he was a nice chap, and walked off..plus currently, shah alam is not officially covered by them, hence the 30 day trial.. (btw, something happened here, cont. reading or scroll down).
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Yes something happened which has not for quite sometime..i was standing waiting for this female sales rep to help me coz she was busy helping this other guy, and this guy noticing my ‘ermmm..uhuh’ look..asks me what can he do for me..i smiled and felt like saying alot of mischievious things, but kept the sarcasm to myself..he looked like a nice decent polite chap, kind/soft voice.. probably a temp. for telecoms..or temp sales rep. ..i told him what i wanted to find out about n wanted to register now, since it was pretty straight forward..he gave me a form, i gave him my IC that he asked for, and i helped myself to a pen..

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After a minute, he came back to me from where he was at the photocopy machine, a good 2 metres away, and asks

are you malaysian?

..i told myself, cheeky little mutt, i just gave him, my IC Biru! this question was new to me but not altogether..i say yes..and change the subject asking him where else do i have to fill in the form..he points out..and then turns to that female colleague of his and say,

‘hah malaysian’

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where are u from?

and this point i saw where this was going

ermm..selangor aa..shah alam (to keep it simple)

owh, ur father drpd mana? (he realizes i can speak malay)

ermm (getting a tad bit annoyed, but reminded myself of my new kind hearted self), dia daripada singapore

ohh..mak?

at this point i said kaninabueychiaochibye but to myself..

mak pun orang singapore jugak..

owhh okok..tapi u muka tak macam orang sini..

“makkau punya laki laaaaaaaa…aku nak broadbanddd..ya Allahhhhhhh..” i said to myself..so i replied still politely

tak, grandparents saya arab aa

at this point i assume he reached his climax and got satisfied so decided to cease pestering and confer with his colleague..mind you, i do mean confer, at that photocopy machine, and it was clearly audible to me.

laaa..orang siniii..tapi arab la..aku speaking je tadi..terkejut aku dia ckp melayu..tu la pasaaalll

i took a deep breath, collected more sins under my breath, exhale with nasal sound effect..i guess my hidung dinosaur was not big enough to make him note of my subtle annoyance..
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it was not that bad la..ive had worse..more direct..more in your face..about 2 years ago me and the General went to the clinic, which ive been going to since the late 80′s, stood at the counter giving our account digits there and the clerk, whos been working there for years, looks at both of us for a few seconds, points with her index finger at me, the General, then me, left right..and says..

ya Allahh..sama muka dia..anak bapak..sebijik..betull..

Nak ajaq skit

Nak ajaq sikit

“You’re why caveman chiseled on walls”

“You know how lucky you are?You know what you want!”

-Greg Kinnear/Simon Bishop

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I Alone-Live

Swan Lake Ballet Suite-Tchaikovsky

Bomoh-Too Phat

Untitled-Digweed, Cox, Oakenfold, Sasha.
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In relation to my previous post “Crawling with alphabets”..it occurred to me that I was also struggling with Jhumpa Lahiri’s book “The namesake.” Also loan to me by my sister in law, I noticed quite a number of ppl I know also have this book..so its supposedly good right? How then did for a few times I thot of ditching it? is it still the part about relating to books? Cause it was semi Indian semi American..i may have struggled but finished it. did I finish it because it had some American elements that its easier to relate to?

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Ive come to note that some ppl have difficulty in admitting a local English song is good.

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Or a local malay production is good. It took quite a long time for Malaysians to adopt bollywood if you really think about it, or was it bollywood that went boom. Either way, is this what Hollywood has done to us? Or what we have allowed them to do to us. Most of our celebs, of the English media, have that non-malaysian or non-asian element. Fair skin, accent, brown hair, one london name. Either one or all of the above. Channel [V]’s office is in kl/pj, but who are the vj’s, paula malai ali is still around at the top, joey g. Even the previous ones from the other networks..jamie aditya, nadya hutagalung, Jason lo.

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Ive got nothing against her (paula), she is not of the height, not of the fair skin, but the name and accent is there. She’s just the mere example. I had a conversation with someone about this few weeks back. And perhaps the closest we can come to is, Cheryl samad. But even that, ‘Cheryl’ is there. I don’t think that this is some massive problem, but a conundrum to say the least. Yes we have like, fly guy, jakeman, (I don’t think aznil falls within the ambit of this discussion), mahathir lokman, jit murad, Rashid salleh, siaoo, ok I don’t watch tv that much and don’t get the radio often nowadays.You get the pic.

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Ive got nothing really against it, it is slightly disturbing, but it cant be denied that it’s a reflection of certain things. Do these things continue, even in radio ads with its some mat salleh voice with a splash of oz, brit or American accent, because of the network? Because the networks research that these ppl are definitely favourable and receptive by their audience? or is this globalization? definition of cool? a subtle way of indicating, this is how we should be/sound like? or most importantly, is this a semblance of white supremacy?

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Enough here..this issue can go on forever..bawak bertenang la temah..

Judgmental

“Optimism”

-English

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Songs of the moment:

Love-Musiq Soulchild

Losing my religion-REM

Master Blaster-Dj Luck & Mc Neat

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i have come to realize that i used to be really judgmental..i think we all are..but perhaps me more..used to tho..i admit and many has concur that im alsot a fault finder..i look, then observe someone, something, an idea, an itinerary of an event, a photograph, outfit and ill point out to you as much as i can what is wrong, off, flaw, fault, anything short of my perception of perfection..its sucks i know..that part hasnt change but now that im conscious about it, it helps to not a self righteous jack ass (altho i do miss being mean, critical and bitchy)..alot has changed for me in the past 12 or so months..in character, mentality, behaviour and approach..having said that, come to think of it again, i used to be super judgmental..

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its difficult to not be judgmental tho..we see a motorbike, and we think no good, annoying, rempit..we see a car driving fast, and we think dangerous, negligent, inconsiderate..we see young kids smoking, we think what? we see ppl littering, we think what? what are the first few words that come across your mind, briefly or temporarily or permanently when such things happen..and could we say voicing it out reflects how strong or how judgmental we are as oppose to keeping it to ourselves? everyone is familiar with the ‘benefit of doubt’, the ‘two sides of the leaf’, but how conscious or subconscious are we in practicing it..what more when it comes to ‘us’ and ‘them’..generalization is fair but can be very prejudice at the same time..ppl say americans are ignorant, esp in geography..the are 200 million plus of them..and if so, what about malaysians? ppl say the malays are lazy and complacent, and other minority races in malaysia are not..is that really the case? could it be due to being a former colony? being the majority in their own land? “Natans” or “Natankarans” (haha)..

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part of the way i look at ppl being judgmental now, is that i think and behave the way i do because of what ive been exposed to (experience, parenting, school, environment)..and i wouldnt be the way i am now if it wasnt for any of that..so how can i,we, expect others to be as ‘good’ as agreeable to our opinions or the way we are, if they too have not been exposed to those that we have been exposed of..and to achieve that, we can admit that it is truly impossible..different ppl, culture, country, race, religion, sex, do things not the way we do because..we’re different..at times yes, they may be ‘bad’, ‘weird’, ‘bitchy’, ‘anarchy’, ‘rebellious’,'ignorant’, ‘stuckup’,'holier than thou’,'crude’, ‘wrong’,..think about all the friends and relatives we have around us..those u got to know through time..if we had been strongly judgmental and decided upon the distance of the relationship almost immediately, would the two of you be where you are to each other today? think of especailly the ppl close to you noow..so if they received that benefit of doubt from you, either by accident of time or by proximity confinement, why not other members of the public..and im not just talking about your community, im not just talking about malaysians..im talking about anyone and everyone, literally..be it a friend of a friend, or the shopkeeper whose shop you’ll probably never visit again, or a city you’ll never holiday in again..we’re all hasty in saying the negative stuff but abstain from compliments, no matter how subtle..so i say, begin with like you, he/she is just different..because what goes around comes around..

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if i continue, i dont know how long will this post be..but if there was a time, when the greatest minds of the world thought that the earth was flat, and thought that only homosexuals get AIDS..and we condemn them, what about us?

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ps. what prompt me to post this, is of course the change that i notice in me after reflecting how i was some time/years ago, and the ppl who i respect, or are close to me now and in the past and how greatly we differ..what i saw in them when we first met, the ‘faults’ i found, cease to exist..they helped, so names due mention.. glad i gave them that ‘time’, that ‘benefit of doubt’..when you come to know of change in you, and not make any attempt to ‘preach’ or ‘help’ or ‘share’ with others, thats just selfish..

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pps. its challenging/hard/awkward being kind init?

As good as it gets

“People who talk in metaphors ought to shampoo my crotch”

“Carol the waitress, Simon the fag”

“I think of a man, and i take away reason and accountability”

“You make me want to be a better man”

-Jack Nicholson/Melvin Udall

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Songs of the moment:

N/A

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If i continue watching and typing at the same time, there’ll be more quotes..so enough already..i should be typing all this late night, alone, no interruptions, with no one around doing nothing around me..the best time.

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Im watching this movie for the who knows how many times..this time on astro..of course when i first watched it, i was either too young, naive or bodo to realize that cuba gooding and kinnear was gay..i think its a fckin beautiful movie..’beautiful’ cause i think it truly is..’fckin’ is to reinforce and reiterate my manliness in case of doubt..defensive eh?

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I think everyone is likeable in this movie..nicholson was annoying in Batman..helen hunt, there was that one movie..i only like greg kinnear in this..cuba gooding jr., generally hes great..i used to hate dogs in everyway after being chased when i was about 6 and my brother running ahead of me-laughing..but that little pup or mutt wtv, Verdell, how adorable can that little thing get..the kesian part was when that cleaning lady kena told off by nicholson after she asked him if he’d be willing to take Verdell out for a walk.

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What does nicholson have in this movie anyway? anyone knows? a disorder? syndrome? cacat? autism? screw loose? salah wayar? minyak tak tukar?

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I confess i am starting to feel embarassed, guilty, poyo, kental, self-obsessed, with how often im posting in this blog..apparently, like how most normal general humans are, if you confess like this, it mitigates the whole thing.

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I miss new york

“Musnahlah ilham, hilang pedoman”

-Amy Search

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Songs of the moment:

Kejora-Search

When She Loved Me-Sarah Mclachlan

Temperature-Sean Paul

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“…engkau bagai air yang jernih, di dalam bekas yang berdebu…” from Isabela..is he talking about her foundation? bad make up? it just hit me that that line sounds abit off..besides its romantic interpretation, what do u, esp. girls make of this line?

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(deleted)…keep in mind that as i child, i started talking only at the age of four, and have difficulty stopping until now..i started reading( not sure when), and the reading habit (around 17) rather late..besides being a slow reader, i also cant sit and read for long periods of time..in short, despite my love for it, an addictive book like da vinci code, which i read during sem addictively, took me 2 weeks..get the picture?

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im almost at the end of Blink by Malcolm Gladwell..a book my brother loan me..fantastic book..’The Power of Thinking Without Thinking’..before even finishing this book, i already bought a copy as gift a friend of mine who let me stay in his house for many days in new york..i vouch for it..its a relatively bersepah book..hops here and there throughout..it basically explains about how the brain works and all that comes near it..also about decision making, and how deciding immediately before a person makes the first blink can be better than analyzing the problem and overlook the matter hollistically..hence, Blink.

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I have a few books pending..but if it sucks, then i want to have something to turn to immediately..the two books i bought but have some doubts are ‘Crime and Punishment’ and ‘Notes From Underground’ both by Dosto(y)evsky..hes some russian mutt that was imprisoned for some stuff he did i forgot what..brilliant chap apparently..im a sucker for these kind of writers and these kind of books..hence my doubt..i might not be prepared yet for these books..i thot i would have enjoyed ‘Anna Karenin’ by Tolstoy..read like 20 pages, couldnt take it, too russian..i bought an RM12 copy of ‘War & Peace’ by Tolstoy too, tak baca until now, coz one of my friends said its loooong and abit draggy and ada like 700 characters..in time i shall..i also bought ‘Mein Kempf’ by Adolf Hitler..read like 100 pages..couldnt take it, too german..i enjoyed ‘Long Walk To Freedom’ by Mandela, it was very African of course, but i read it a little after coming back from cape town, so that mustve helped..summink easier to relate to..also ‘The Singapore Story’ by Lee Kuan Yew..very singaporean, and also malaysian ish..can relate like kacang..plus, unlike mandela, lee is also brilliant as a writer..budak cambridge youuuu..i had some problem with Yukio Mishima’s ‘Confessions of a Mask’ becaus it was too japanese and disturbing..but it was good, and i was a sports clerk at a Family Club here in Shah Alam, doing nothing much besides reading health magazines in between staring at the ceiling, so i finished it..brilliant book nevertheless.

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Hence my scepticism pessimism over the Dostoyevsky or Dostoevsky..but i already bought two of his books..selamat tak mahal..what can i say, im a sucker..my sister in law loan me some janet evanovich..she said its similar to ‘Adrian Mole’..but its a series, and you have to get hooked once u start volume one

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Any good stuff to recommend?

Fourth today

“Z.S.J.P.”

-Huzaifah Khan

Songs of the moment:

Na Na and Love Jones-Chico De Barge.

Hey Boy Hey Girl-Chemical Brothers.

Until The Morning-Thievery Corporation f/ Emiliana Torrini

In my attempt to keep the readers happy with their first visit, this is my fourth post in nine or so hours. Im sure after this, or sometime after this, my posts will be less frequent. But then again, i am registering for streamyx broadband tomorrow.

Today I had my 2nd paper of my final exam. Women and the Law. The paper has taught me about, the feminist jurisprudence, feminist school of thought (radical, liberal, cultural, post modern), issues pertaining to women such as pregnancy, abortion, gender and sex issue, prostitution, discrimination, female genital mutilation, forced marriage, transexuals,violence against women, rape, commercial, labour, human rights, CEDAW, reproductive rights, etc. What made me take this elective paper, when i asked my course coordinator that im in to rights, human rights, government etc, she popped this course. Industrial Relations (labour law) might be interesting, but not enough to learn the big issues in one semester. Media law is related to intellectual property rights, but those rights issue, i assume cannot be as interesting as the women issue. This has resulted to many interruptions and debates between me and Pn Jashpal (the activist,the beast). While i do respect her, some of the stuff was very questionable and doubtful. For a womens rights activist, feminist, her bias is minimal. I must thank her for the knowledge.

My next paper is on friday morning. Constitutional law (Undang-Undang Perlembagaan), sounds familiar, rukun negara. Mind you, its a semester 2 paper, and im in semester four. I didnt extend. Amazingly,this is one of my favourite subjects, seriously. But i failed it, twice. There are many factors, reasons and excuses i could shoot to mitigate the rabakness of me failing the paper twice, i have come to accept that ultimately it is my fault and its God willing. Its got alot to do with human rights and the government as a whole. The courts the politicians the electorate the king the ppl. Most of the stuff you see in the papers during the anwar ibrahim fiasco, lina joy conversion, murthi (widow of everest climber), tun salleh abbas are in relation to this paper. This is the paper for you, core paper for me, is youre interested in knowing the good and dirty works of the government. Depends on whose side your on.

I love this subject, but im on strike two. Part of my assessment was a group assignment. Because i was the repeater of this subject and didnt really make much effort to make friends with the younger batch, tho they were nice and receptive, i had to do it on my own. The topic assigned to me was “The Article 11 Group and Its Progress.” I altered the assignment with “Article 11:An Interview with Malik Imtiaz Sarwar.” In given time, i shall publish excerpts of this assignment. This should be a good read for those who has been doing alot of talking about the issue of religion in malaysia of late. Malik Imtiaz Sarwar is a constitutional lawyer and the President for HAKAM. He did his degree in UIA, Masters in Hongkong and Masters in Oxford (human rights related). He has been involved in many of the constitutional cases in malaysia. Hes been getting death threats and his family has been harassed. I wont go too far by saying i agree with his views, but hes one intelligent chap.

Post Script 1, the Songs of the Moment is to share music. From noticing ppl’s nick on msn with what theyre currently listening to is how i discover music. What goes around comes around. If anyone has any music to vouch for, pls let me know. I need new stuff.

Post Script 2, the quotes part is something i think is a good dose. Its difficult to manage with a quote book. You get bored and its too long. However, only those who knows, will laugh at the acronym of today’s quote. I cant believe that quote still lives. Huzi nabey.

Blog management

“Its a lot of pain when you find out you were ignorant”

-M.J. Blidge

Songs of the moment:

All The Way- Frank Sinatra and Celine Dion.

Touch It-Busta Rhymes.

Road To Zion-Damian Marley.

Ive this notion that I want to begin every post with a quote I feel worth sharing. And to also type out all my posts properly. With capital ‘I’ and no more double punctuation like in my sms’s and emails ‘..’ .However, I dont want this to be too rigid. So as said by many young rebellions, ‘ill do as i please.i dont care what other ppl think.’

Holier than thou art

“There is so much nonsense spoken and written about art today that the average man is, naturally, inclined to be shy of the whole subject, and suspicious of those who practise the Arts. He thinks, if this mass of contradiction and confusing jargon is the result of the love of Art, he had better do without Art altogether. There is no mystery about Art, but there is mystification without end, evolved by certain critics who love to pose as superior persons. Such writers put forward the theory that enjoyment of fine arts is reserved for a select and exclusive minority, meaning of course, themselves and their disciples. No greater error could be propounded than this, which is a comparatively modern fallacy and one which is so dangerous that if persisted, it must in time bring into contempt everything and everyone connected with Art”

From The World’s Greatest Paintings:Selected Masterpieces, published in 1934 edited by Professor T. Leman Hare. I came across the above quote when I was reading A Prison Diary:Heaven Volume 3 by Jeffrey Archer. In which he wrote “…something, in my opinion, is even more relevant today that it was in 1934″

I say “You kno dam rite!”

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